Being Childless at Work

by | Jan 28, 2016 | Blog

I came across this interesting article titled The Brutal Truth About Being Childless at Work http://fortune.com/2015/11/07/truth-about-childless-at-work/ I must admit this is something that I have struggled with so much so that I have not openly talked about my...

The birthday message

by | Dec 24, 2015 | Blog

As I sit here to today reflecting on the past 45 years, yes it’s my birthday,  I am amazed at what has gone and at what is to come. As most of you know I am on an emotional journey of self-discovery to finding my plan B so I took the day off work to have some...

The letter

by | Dec 12, 2015 | Blog

I mentioned in a recent post titled ‘The interview’ the daunting prospect of telling my dad about the daily mail article that I was interviewed for. I was so afraid of how he’d react about my past and felt like I would be letting him down because he...

The interview

by | Dec 5, 2015 | Blog

Jody day from Gateway Women (GW) recently asked if there was anyone who would be interviewed by Daily Mail for an article about being childless. When I read this request I thought that this would be a great, huge, step to take toward my healing but my inner voice...

The school reunion

by | Nov 13, 2015 | Blog

I went to a school reunion last night. It was great to catch up with people who I haven’t seen since leaving school in 1987. As excited as I was to go I also found myself anxiously worrying about being asked if I had children. It would be natural for the others...

Unfulfilled dreams

by | Nov 9, 2015 | Blog

One aspect of my grief that I have found difficult to deal with is that I will not be giving my parents the grandchildren that they dreamed of. For as long as I can remember my dad had been asking me when was I going to get married and have children. At that time I...

Christmas Buttons

by | Nov 9, 2015 | Blog

We were discussing the emotional triggers associated with the up and coming holiday session, at a Gateway Women plan B session, yes the perfect storm for childless women. Thinking about the pending family gathering reminded me of a time, not too long ago, that I had...

Why could this not have been me?

by | Nov 4, 2015 | Uncategorized

So I have received news of another pregnancy. I remember a time when I would have been happy to hear such news but now I just feel numb. Its such a hard reality for me that there are times that I really cannot identify with what I am feeling. So I just cry and today...