Pregnant Friends…

A very special friend who is instrumental in helping me through my grief sent me a message regarding one of my recent blogs… ‘Hiding my pain in their joy’ regarding a friend who has recently announced that she is pregnant. My friend wrote… In...

One step closer to my plan B

After receiving the exciting news that I will be photographing Terry McMillan early next year as Women Talk’s official event photographer I was also honoured to be told that Women Talk are going to back my book and would like to get the book published to be...

Hiding my pain in their joy…

A friend of mine who has been on her own journey to becoming a mother told me recently that she is pregnant and I was unable to identify with how I felt. I found it difficult to move past the words “I am pregnant”. I have been on this journey with her...

Gifts of Grief

Jody Day shared this poem with our GW group which I thought I’d share with you as the words and sentiment touched my heart.  Whilst working through my grief I am learning to come to terms with my past decisions. I am slowly accepting the loss of not having my...

Why does society always have to fix us???

I saw on the news recently that a woman in Sweden  has become the first in the world to have a baby after having a womb transplant – and now  doctors have been granted approval to carry out the UK’s first womb transplants. When I first heard this, I wasn’t even...

How do you stop the war???

My day ended on a note of grief. I struggled to contain my emotions when managing the “pregnant princess” at work. We have hit a new level in this battle that is quickly becoming a war of wits, trying to see who will come out the victor. Why does it have...

A precious pregnant pause…

One of the things I find difficult in my grief about my childlessness (as an individual and a manager) is being around “precious pregnant women”. You know the type, the ones who think that they shouldn’t have to do anything because they are pregnant… but...

My beginning …

I remember sitting in the office of my fertility consultant after having a number of fertility tests and wondering why he was telling me that he could not find a reason for me not being able to conceive. Unexplained infertility, he said. Hearing it left me feeling so...