My day ended on a note of grief. I struggled to contain my emotions when managing the “pregnant princess” at work. We have hit a new level in this battle that is quickly becoming a war of wits, trying to see who will come out the victor.

Why does it have to be this way? Why declare war? After talking with my GW circle I am beginning to see where my fear might be coming from. But it is so hard to shift from my concern that she could be using her pregnancy as a weapon (I realise that this is a strong choice of words from me here) to get what she wants and I resent that. I am genuinely pleased she is having the baby she so wanted so badly, but I am not happy about the dynamics that seem to be coming with it and effecting us all at work.

So the battle begins…. she doesn’t seem to be honest about what is really going on, which I think is that she is not pulling her weight on the team. If we give in, that means she is not playing fair. But who really wins and who really loses and why is this the only choice? All I know right now as I try and figure out what this means for me, is that I am finding it hard to stop listening to my internal gremlins and find a safe way through this that means we both win.